April 22, 2005

My Sisters

Filed under: Just Plain Ranting

It’s been 2 days since my sisters and my mom left for the States and I am beginning to miss them.

Sunshine is now 19 years old. She was born one year and nine months after I was. When we were kids we use to fight a lot and I mean all out catfights! Inevitably, we became close over the years. I remember comforting her, whenever we hide in our room because our dad was drunk again. We became close because of shared experiences, which is probably what makes siblings close anyway. We both grew up without our parents around and nobody knows that feeling of abandonment and independence better than she does. She makes collecting boyfriends a living and is very outgoing and I mean very! She is my friend, which ironically some people can’t say about their sibling. Our relationship is that of two best friends talking and sharing about men, clothes, life…

Mae is my youngest sister. She is eleven and was born ten years after I was. We treat her like the kid that she is. Unfortunately we baby her a lot and I worry sometimes because se is so naïve and trusting of people. She is sensitive, caring, giving. Athletic and a straight A student. I’m proud of her. She brings out the nurturing side in me and I love her a lot…

Five years ago, I made a promise that when we moved to the States and had our own careers, we’d live in the same apartment without our parents and be happy and independent and have lots of fun. I always feel guilty because I’m breaking that promise by staying here. I told them I’d be there for them and now I can’t be and it makes me feel awful. I miss them like hell and that’s why I always try to keep in tough with them. To my sisters, I love you both and take care!

April 1, 2005

Busy,busy,busy

Filed under: Just Plain Ranting

I know that I haven’t blogged in quite awhile. Been busy. Lots of things happening in my life. My grandparents’ Golden Anniversary (they’re renewing their vows in church), which I am helping out in, will be Saturday next week. I also have to call the new lawyer that my grandparents plan to hire to fix our land dispute. Whew! I’m soooo busy. I have 6 books at home waiting for me to read them. My mom and youngest sister is coming home on Monday and I have to miss work for that. I mean I do have to greet them at the airport. Oh man! I honestly am embarrassed to ask permission to go out early next Saturday and miss work morning next next Monday coz I have to miss work the whole day this Monday to go greet my mom and sister…Argh!

John, Pia, Vix and I are also going to see Barbie’s Cradle in concert later so that’s gonna be fun.

I just wish that I had more time to do all the things that I have to do. I guess that’s life. Do I regret being this busy though? I don’t think so.. coz I’d rather be busy than wandering aimlessly right? Living a full life is certainly better than just drifting along…it’s tiring though…