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Me in glasses

HA! My wonderful 6-year-old cousin whom I love and adore flushed my contact lenses yesterday down the toilet! Oh, they weren’t expensive just about Php 4,000. That’s just grand, isn’t it?And guess what, I’m not gonna be reimbursed for that. So I’m on my own scrounging enough money to buy another pair. Why don’t you just get a gun and be done with it! I can’t even get mad at my cousin. Coz he’s a kid and he doesn’t know what he’s doing. Seriously, the only way that he wouldn’t know what he’s doing is if he’s sleepwalking or retarded. That I would understand. Look, I’m a bitch, I admit that, but my cousin isn’t stupid, he’s not. Shouldn’t he be told at least not to touch other people’s stuff? He’s old enough right? I mean he washes his own ass! He knows how to, so he must have a semblance of what is right and what is wrong right? Shouldn’t that sense of awareness be fostered in him? Coz this sucks. I don’t even get a sorry. It would have been enough. Now I’m just furious. When I went home everybody acted like nothing’s wrong. Sure it wasn’t your money that literally went down the drain. Fucking ass!

OK, I’m ok now. Breathe. Exhale. Breathe. Exhale.

On other news, I’m getting a new computer! Yippee! Hehehe I’m so excited, I can actually play World of Warcaft in my new PC. That’s basically the only requirement I made when I asked John to look for the specs. hehe I’m really looking forward to it!

I have just told John that we need to go to a church and have the date of our wedding reserved. There I was finally able to type it! The thought of getting married and the thought of marrying John have remained two entirely separate concepts in my mind. The institution of marriage per se has left me cynical. I just am about it. What with divorce, domestic abuse, getting married for the wrong reasons (e.g. money, ticking biological clock, unwanted pregnancy, etc.) all around me. I am not the marrying type. As a matter of fact, John will tell you first hand how commitment-phobic I am and how hard he tried to change that while we were going out. The thought of marriage made me feel trapped. I mean there can only be one person, that’s it till the day you die. And the truth is it’s scary when you put it that way. BUT the thought of marrying John is an entirely different matter. I am actually loking forward to waking up next to him in the morning in my pajamas, cooking breakfast, cuddle in front of the tv at night. It sounds fun! I look forward to our banter, to our personalities clashing and finally to be able to work together when we cook (Something we have never done, we try to wring each other’s neck in the process. Not pretty.) I look forward to backrubs, going on hikes, swimming together, getting lost when we travel (we’ve done that a lot!) And slowly my view on marriage is changing. It doesn’t sound so bad now.

When I think of getting married, my hands get clammy and my heart feels like it’s about to jump out of my chest. I feel like running. When I think about marrying JOHN (and for me there’s a difference), I feel calm…and safe…and cared for. Like all I need is to hold his hand, in the midst of the craziness in this world and I’ll be fine.

I had planned to have boyfriends and adopt when the time was right. Travel, do social work and build a house near one of the beaches in California. Be free my whole life. But now, all that’s changed. Ironically, I feel more free now with John than I ever did. I don’t regret changing my plans. So I guess that means I’m not running. hehehe

I actually had a full weekend. Before watching Batman Sunday, I actually went out Saturday with John, Kathlyn, Sharmy and Tina (who I just met that same instant and liked). We went to MO2, this club at Goldenfields. John and I were there first as Sharmy and Tina waited for Kathlyn who had to go her LAW Acquaintance Party. When i got there John already had two beers and I was feeling really bad that night coz my father called and brought up all our issues. So yeah I was primed to get drunk! I ordered a strawberry margarita. John had another beer. We also ordered chicharon bulaklak. After that I ordered a white russian while John got a black russian and we had tapa to eat. I also drank some of John’s beer. By the end of our second round, we were both laughing hysterically. I can’t even remember what we were laughing at. I remember calling my sister on the phone. It was about 6 am in the States and I really woke her up. She was still groggy while I told her about where I was and what I was doing. I guess I got a little drunk. I even went to the bathroom concentrating hard on the path coz I was seriously afraid I was gonna trip. I really don’t think I was walking straight even. hehehe Anyway, I got another drink after that. It was a mudslide and it tasted great. By then my friends arrived and they were like, “You’re hammered” and I was like, “I am not drunk”. John left then so that I can bond with the girls. Then we hit the dance floor. See dance floor.

It got more crowded than that by 1 am with everyone inebriated. I think it was fun actually, all that squeezing in. I had a great time dancing with my friends. Some guy even hit on Sharmy, who needed a pick me up after some dude blew her off. Of course, my drinks have worn on off by then. I think it was great exercise! hahaha All around couples were making out. Some guy was digging into his gf’s pants while he was chugging a beer on the other hand. That made me laugh! Men! Some were on the tables dancing. You really can’t make out anybody’s face so I guess that’s one reason why nobody was shy or embarrassed. Anyway, we all had iced tea after the strenuous dancing and talked a little bit about our lives. Tina (a nurse) had to go to work early. So we got a taxi at around 2 am and went home. Till next time girls!

It is not who you are underneath but what you do that defines you. —Rachel

Watched Batman yesterday with Mia and Katy. Had a blast! We haven’t really had an all girls outing for a long time and we really had fun yesterday without our respective Johns We shopped for books at National bookstore, had coffee at Bobs, looked for a Mr. and Mrs. Smith theme for Katy’s phone (she envies mine!) we weren’t able to find one though (my phone is a nokia 6600, has more choices than the sony ericsson). Nangutos sya! Laughed at that! She wanted to die her hair like Angelina. Went around the mall looking for her exact same shade of hair dye. It was pretty funny. I had to hold my phone up beside every conceivable hair dye box. Yep that friend of mine is obsessed!

When we finally sat down to watch Batman, all talk ceased. (Of course, there’s the ocassional Bale is hot! from Katy and the “I don’t like Katie comments”) The movie was good. I think they really were able to focus on one point about Batman that I never realized and that’s FEAR. Here you have a hero that is human and chooses to be more than that. What would make a person decide to be more than what he is? Why did Bruce choose a bat as a symbol? What problems did he have starting out as Batman? All of these were answered and in a believable way too. However, call me a cynic but the whole League of Shadows thing was just a little too cliche for me. I guess I’ve seen way too many movies about superheroes coz it really seemed like it was getting old. Reminded me too much of Elektra I guess. Asian-inspired fighting group and all that. Must be all the rage in Hollywood. Christian Bale played Batman well, I think. I like him as Batman, second to Michael Keaton who I will always associate with the character probably coz he’s the original. Here are some reasons why I think he pulled it off:

1. He’s hot!
2. Played both characters well. As Bruce, he is vulnerable. As Batman, he is invincible. Very nice.
3. He did not look like he was trying to hard.
4. You get the sense that he fits into the Batman stereotype. He brings enough to the table to make you nostalgic and gives enough to make it his own.
5. And the dialogue was good. The bond between Bruce and Alfred seemed real. It made the audience care about the characters. The funny moments were funny and didn’t appear contrived at all.

After watching it, I am looking forward to a sequel. The movie may be called Batman Begins but it felt more like Batman Reborn, The Return of the Franchise. And that’s a good thing.

I was at the mall yesterday thinking about buying a pair of jeans. I didn’t buy anything. Here’s why:

I never realized the Philippines was so poor we had to resort to making draperies into jeans. Yes it worked for Maria Von Trap but it will not work for us.

See that woman’s feet on the lower left corner. She was checking the jeans out. I had to hit her on the head to stop her from committing fashion suicide. See, I’m a good citizen!

Reminds me of an oversized bandana.

Vomit inspired jeans underneath Blood and Brain Matter.

Rotten Moldy Eggs.

And last but not least….

If I was hit by a ten-wheeler on a rainy day, it would look like this. See the tire tracks on this one? Such detailed work!

Ummm…regarding my first post, I did link my old blog to this site but Pia wanted it removed from her domain fo space reasons…so I’ll be moving all of my posts from that site to this one..ok?