Kickazzbitch

Just went to a travel agency to book my flight for the States and renew my passport because my mother has given me an ultimatum. So yeah I’m leaving for the States this September 18. Will be back definitely before June 2006 because I still plan to take up Law. Sigh*

The truth is I’m tired of all this staying and leaving, staying and leaving. I have not stayed in this country for 12 months straight for 4 years now and I’m tired. I have been going back and forth the States and disrupting my life here. 10 months in the Philippines, 2 months in the States, 9 months in the Philippines, 3 months in the States. I’m tired of all the packing and unpacking, the adjusting, the 17 hours on a plane alone. No one to talk to, no one to share the experience with. I’m so, so tired.

I just got this job teaching Korean kids and I really like it. It’ll enable to work and go to Law school at the same time. Now I have to resign coz I have to leave. I still have two unpacked boxes of my stuff but I guess there’s no point unpacking them now since I’m leaving.

All I want is to stay put in a place for 2 years straight. Never have to pack to go anywhere. Just live there, get a job and actually have a semblance of a normal life. I need some stability. Badly. But with the way things are going…Sigh* I feel like I’m pulled in two different directions and the truth is it’s not even my decision to go. I don’t want to go. God, I hate the drama. Right now, I’m wishing I had a normal life. Sigh*

I know it seems like I’ve dropped off the face of the earth, went to Mars and forgotten all about blogging but really I haven’t. I’m just busy. Yeah, every working professional’s excuse I know. And it’s true.

I got a new job at this Korean school, teaching Korean kids how to speak English. This is going to be my part-time job while I’m taking up Law. There are a lot of anecdotes that I wanted to share with you. But I can’t think of any funny one at the moment. Maybe next time. My students have been all so cute and adorable. Some already left for Korea so I’m going to miss them. I started working part-time only this week because I have decided to begin compiling books for Law and reading them in the afternoons. So now I only work in the morning. I have been given the choice to not work altogether but that’s just not me. I know Law School is going to be tough but I just can’t imagine not working and being totally dependent on my family. And I need something to take my mind off Law school too. So it works out. Teaching is something that I really enjoy especially when my students are kids. I have to say I’m really happy with this job. Everyday feels like I’m just playing with them in the classroom. I really enjoy it!

Also, I’ve been spending a lot of time with my friends, going out and having fun. I like the fact that I don’t have to work on Saturday so I really get to enjoy my weekend. Of course, when October comes I have to go back to school and all the stress that comes with being employed and in school at the same time. I’ll see how far I can go. I really want to be good at Law school. It’s not like me to do anything mediocre. I’m too much of a perfectionist that way. Whew! It’s going to be hard and I’m just preparing myself as much as I can.

I’ve met a lot of friends at work. I like talking to them. They say they like talking to me because I don’t put on airs (Did I say that right?). A lot of them think that I have money because of my family. I don’t tell people my background because I really don’t think it’s relevant to the work that we do. I don’t want people to think that I have money because 1) It has been my experience that some people who pretend to be my friends are only my friends because of money. It’s a bad experience for me feeling like my “friends” ATM. 2) I don’t think I’m rich at all. It’s my parents, my family who has money. I don’t. It’s weird that people think of it as the same but it’s not. I see people in terms of what they have done individually rather than what their family has done or is doing for a living. Just because a person has a certain last name doesn’t mean that they have to be treated differently. I mean we’re just people struggling to have a good life. And some people struggle more than others. Some are more lucky. Some have been given more to work with. What I hate the most is the culture of pretending. I just wish people don’t have to be so pretentious and full of themselves. I don’t like that.