Just went to a travel agency to book my flight for the States and renew my passport because my mother has given me an ultimatum. So yeah I’m leaving for the States this September 18. Will be back definitely before June 2006 because I still plan to take up Law. Sigh*
The truth is I’m tired of all this staying and leaving, staying and leaving. I have not stayed in this country for 12 months straight for 4 years now and I’m tired. I have been going back and forth the States and disrupting my life here. 10 months in the Philippines, 2 months in the States, 9 months in the Philippines, 3 months in the States. I’m tired of all the packing and unpacking, the adjusting, the 17 hours on a plane alone. No one to talk to, no one to share the experience with. I’m so, so tired.
I just got this job teaching Korean kids and I really like it. It’ll enable to work and go to Law school at the same time. Now I have to resign coz I have to leave. I still have two unpacked boxes of my stuff but I guess there’s no point unpacking them now since I’m leaving.
All I want is to stay put in a place for 2 years straight. Never have to pack to go anywhere. Just live there, get a job and actually have a semblance of a normal life. I need some stability. Badly. But with the way things are going…Sigh* I feel like I’m pulled in two different directions and the truth is it’s not even my decision to go. I don’t want to go. God, I hate the drama. Right now, I’m wishing I had a normal life. Sigh*