Kickazzbitch

I’ve been so depressed lately. I lie awake for hours and I wake up during odd times at night. I have this feeling. Like I’m trying to hold back tears. Like I have just lost something I deeply love. It hurts. But I don’t know why.

Maybe I’ve just been working too hard. Haven’t been eating a lot. Had to lose sleep to finish reports.

I don’t know. It’s like I’m going to implode at any minute. I feel like crying for no reason.

I’m hanging in there. Waiting for it to pass.

Stayed up late last night watching the season finale of Grey’s Anatomy. Of course, I was bawling at the end. Denny died. Meredith and Derek are driving me insane. Alex must really love Izzie. Christina is finally human. The Chief is pensive. Burke is hurting. God.

I don’t condone what Izzie did. But if I think about losing John like that, I probably would have done what she did. The desperation, the hysteria in her face, just broke my heart. To try so hard, risk everything to have Denny back and then to lose him like that. It hurt to see her breaking into pieces.

I hope Christina and Burke make it. They both need to compromise a lot. Be a little weaker.

As for Meredith and Derek, I want them to be together but at the same time, I want Addison to be happy. I like her. And Finn, I like Finn too. He has plans. And I don’t want Meredith to break his heart.

P.S. The show’s soundtrack just kicks ass!