Kickazzbitch

I’m getting antsy. Sigh.
I have not been to the States in 2 years and I’m trying to fight off the restlessness. Even WOW is boring to me now.
I don’t know. I’m lost.
I’m here at the office getting bored. I wish I had something to do. I am SO efficient that all I have left to do is file papers. Gawd, it’s the most boring job in world!
My husband is swamped. He is struggling with law school and work. He doesn’t have time to deal with me right now. I get that. So I’m lost.
I arrived home at 7pm last night. Had dinner with the in-laws. Surfed the net. Went to bed. While I was lying in bed, he was still playing WOW.
I have only spoken 5 sentences to him since last night. Does he notice? No. hmmmm yeah ok then…..
I’m bored. I have another project to give to school next week and I don’t fucking care.
I need a vacation.
I need a friend.
I need my sister.
Sigh.
I’m trying to gather some enthusiasm for our Hongkong trip this summer. I don’t think that’s gonna happen honestly. Not without me pushing for it. And I don’t want to. I’m tired of pushing. I’m tired of planning for it. I’m tired of researching.
I’m just tired.
I’m tired of talking to my husband who dosn’t listen.
I’m tired of waking up at 6am every morning to go to work.
I’m tired of dealing with people I don’t wanna deal with.
This restlessness is killing me.
I should go visit my family.
I miss my sisters.
Oh wait, I gave up my green card for my husband who is too busy to listen. Sigh.
I’m lost.
I’m sad.
And I’m stuck here.
What to do……